First Night in the Big City...
Well, I did it! This girl now has a brand new place near the beautiful city of Nashville! This weekend has been ridiculously busy, crazy, and fun. Now it's time to catch you all up.
There's something about your first night in a new place. It's seriously one of the strangest feelings ever, especially for someone who has lived in the same house her entire life. Friday night was definitely an experience of mixed emotions for me. We finally closed on my condo that morning, went through orientation, then they handed me the keys to an empty place and that was it. Obviously, it was super exciting! Finally, it was all mine. I could already picture where I wanted to put everything and how I couldn't wait for my friends to come visit me. We went shopping for a few things and I made my first big adult purchase, a couch. It's so awesome to think you're starting a new chapter of your life, but I would be lying if I said it wasn't a little scary too.
A lot of people don't know that I grew up with a lot of anxiety when I was little. I wouldn't spend the night at a friend's house much less ever think of moving. I'm also a massive over thinker. I always joke that it's because I'm a songwriter; we tend to be dramatic and analytical. But, when I laid down on my inflatable mattress in my new room, I couldn't help but think about how big this was. It was quiet and dark and smelled like new paint/carpet. Part of me was thinking about how strange it's going to be being so far away from home and how much I'm going to miss my friends and family. The other part was so proud of myself. Yeah, I was a little anxious. Yeah, it was a little scary. Yeah, it felt weird. But, if you had told me 5 years ago I would be moving 8 hours away from home I would've laughed in your face then would have probably started crying. Progress, my friends, I have made progress.
I've always been the type of person that made myself do stuff that was out of my comfort zone. Mom and Dad would ask me, "Why do you want to do this if it worries you so much?" and I told them that I know in the end I'll be happy that I did it. Sometimes you have to throw yourself into your fears for you to find out they weren't so scary after all.
I guess the reason I'm saying all of this is to show that even when something is exciting and new you're still allowed to be a little scared.
At the end of the day I'm so happy I get the chance to fully pursue what I love. There have been so many signs that this is where I need to be. I have been extremely blessed with parents who have helped me make it possible, and not to mention, put up with my craziness. We had a blast this weekend exploring the new area and meeting new people. Now, I'm home and enjoying my last few weeks in NC before I throw myself into a new chapter of my life. I can promise I'll be updating you guys on it. It's going to get interesting....
Love you! xx Carson
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